9 Responses to “Kurt Cobain Suicide Note”

  1. 1 harlen
    April 14, 2010 at 6:54 pm

    it almost made me cry.

  2. 2 imanji
    March 2, 2010 at 10:26 pm

    wat does it say, i can’t read it

    • 3 patrishka
      March 3, 2010 at 4:10 am

      To Boddah:

      Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

      All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community had proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

      For example, when we’re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun.

      Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

      On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!

      I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.

      I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much, I guess.

      Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.

      Peace, love, empathy,

      Kurt Cobain

      Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your altar.
      Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
      For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

      I love you, I love you!

  3. 4 Rachel
    October 27, 2009 at 12:28 am

    So sad. Such an inspirational man, such a shame we had to lose him. But if thats what he truly wanted, rest in peace, Kurt Cobain.

  4. August 2, 2009 at 2:14 pm

    Who knows the absolute truth? How tragic for such a beautiful man to die so alone in his confusion. I will never forget those blue eyes(filled with such deep pain). He is one of many who filled his world with music and drugs,but he flew so high…that when he came down things became distorted.Sadly, those who are not well grounded.. get lost when fame and fortune shine on them. He will be missed for a long, long time. I just wish hugs could save a life.

  5. August 2, 2009 at 2:04 pm

    How tragic that such a beautiful man, with such promise had to die alone and hurting. The world will never know (for certain) where the blame should go for Kurt’s untimely death. Drugs only numbed his pain and his ability to think rationally. He was one of many and yet fame pushed the poor man into an even deeper hole. God rest his soul.

  6. 7 patrishka
    January 29, 2009 at 10:33 pm

    Yeah it is written in red ink! this is not a color copy. and I do have his journals. I agree they are fantastic!

  7. 8 Elena
    July 8, 2008 at 1:49 am

    yea buy his journals… cause thats not a slap in the face..

    and trishka i love your blog

    love you sweets– El

  8. 9 Charlie
    July 5, 2008 at 10:01 am

    i thought it was written in red ink?
    you should buy his journals, if you haven’t already. fantastic. 🙂

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